Monday, July 6, 2009

My journey has taken a turn......

It's taken me a while to post, but here I am! I realized that when I wrote my last post that I was pregnant at the time, but didn't know it. Most of you (probably all of you) know that Bayli Lucille Lowmaster was stillborn on April 28, 2009. Although I'm still grieving and sad, I look to the Lord for strength and comfort. I've had some people ask me how I can remain so strong in my faith after what happened and the answer is......It's all I have! The truth is, I can't do it alone. It's too hard, it's too overwhelming & frankly....I'm just not that strong. Our grief has brought our family closer together. We all know that each of us is hurting in our own way and when you are in that kind of tread lightly on each other's feelings. I'm not going to tell you that we don't still get mad at each other, but it's less often and for shorter periods of time. I'm a different person because of Bayli. I love her and miss her everyday, but can't wait until the day that I can see her and hold her again.

I have a new found understanding of anyone who has had to bury a child. It wasn't by choice, but I have found that in this "community" we all help each other. It definitely has helped me to be able to talk to others that have gone through what we have gone through. If there is anyone that you know or that is reading this and is struggling with a similar grief, please let me help. It would help me as well.

I hope that I can at least try to get back here once a week, but no promises. I'm not going to stress about it if I don't. Thanks for listening and hope to "see" you again soon!


Lynnette Kraft said...

Did you get pictures of your sweet baby? I wish I would have known about Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep - a photography ministry for babies who are diagnosed with a life threatening problem, stillborn babies, etc. I think it's just wonderful.

Did you know about it?